And so the two week wait begins.
I have read so many of your posts proclaiming how excoriatingly long the TWW can feel. I always thought when I get to that point it won’t be that way for me. Well I was lying to myself! My TWW began on Monday and yesterday could not have dragged on any more. I just don’t get it. I am busy, I have things to do and yet I get done with them look at the time before moving onto the next and only a few minutes have passed.
Today, I have made it my job to do a whole lot of nothing work related and surprisingly I have succeeded in not only that but also in making time go fast (oh I hope I didn’t just jinx myself).
So I would be lying if I said I wouldn’t be devastated if this round didn’t work for us. All those shots, blood tests and doctor’s appointment for what would feel like nothing is a hard pill to swallow. Knowing myself and how I handle bad news (or sleep through it) I am contemplating taking the day off work (or maybe even a half day) just to be prepared for whatever news I get. Let’s be honest it is a no win whatever way I slice it. I will either be over the moon, mind swimming with anticipation and excitement with an inability to focus, or I will be devastated, staring off into space, wanting to do nothing but sleep and again unable to focus. Oh the decisions.
Through this two weeks I am trying not to think about it but my husband is making it so hard. Last night while lying in bed out of nowhere he say’s I’m excited. When I asked for what he said for a baby. “I was thinking about what it would be like if we had twins and to be honest I hope we do” (slow down buster…let’s just hope for one at this point).
How do you ladies keep your head on straight during the wait? I am finding it so hard keeping my mind occupied on thoughts other than the what-ifs.
On another note I started my progesterone suppositories today. One word GROSS!! I have immense respect for all you ladies out there that have been putting up with them for an extended period of time…just gross!